Well the boys and I have been hanging out around the house for the duration of the last two days. I am officially a little bored. Yea sure, I could have found something to do, but I have not been feeling like getting out too much lately then I am bored when I don't. I think I am just waiting for spring to get here so I can enjoy being outside and doing things again.
I have been in a little bit of a weird funk lately. I think I am just emotionally and mentally drained. I lack motivation to do things, but it's not like I'm not getting anything done. For instance this weekend I worked on my cedar chest (it's almost finished now!), cleaned my house, did every piece of laundry I could find, worked on a few school things, and baked a cake. This isn't a bad list of things, but none of it was really all that fun. I guess I'm in one of those stages where I don't have anything great to look forward to, so I'm just kind of waiting for something to happen. All my friends are married or in serious relationships these days and sometimes I just don't feel like being the third wheel, but most of the time it doesn't bother me-I guess it's a part of getting older...
No decisions yet on TX. The long distance thing is really starting to wear on me and it makes me pretty grumpy at times. I've decided it's worse than being single. When your single you have that small twinge of hope that you'll find someone soon. With this you have someone yet your still alone all the time. It is frustrating to say the least! Not to mention I have this problem of trying to find a job. I haven't applied anywhere yet, but it's on my list of things to do this week. There is an opening at LC and Bellevue that I'm going to apply for to begin. I have been waiting on recommendation letters too - I am still waiting for them :-(.
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Thursday, March 02, 2006
Reprieve
Tomorrow is my last day at the Junior High! I am sooooooooo excited to get started with my new classes at the high school and my new cooperating teacher seems very understanding and a lot like me!
Being stressed out and crazy busy is a weird thing. I have been worried about finishing everything this week and getting ready for next week and now that I'm done I'm in a weird little spot where I have little to do. It's nice but weird at the same time-I hope you can all empathize with these feelings because frankly its tough to explain.
I would whine and complain about all the stupid things my cooperating teacher said in my eval but I'm pretty much over it now and just trying to move on. I'm still a little nervous about my exit interview for the first experience, but it will be over before I know it and worrying isn't going to do me any good. I really need to find something productive to do over the weekend though-there's too much to do for me to sit around and do nothing.
I'm still struggling with making a decision about where I want to live...do I move to Texas to be with my honey and make more money? The starting teaching salary there is about 37,000 if I can find a job vs the 29,000 here (if I'm lucky). My teacher at the high school did say today that she would put a good word in for me at this high school if I was interested. If I am here it is definitely the school I would want to teach at, but I'm just not ready to make any decisions. I told her to put a good word in for me anyway because if I could at least get an interview it would be great experience! I don't know if I ever will be ready to make the decision though-I'm just going to have to decide and go from there. It's stupid I hate decisions like this in life. There are too many variables to really know what to expect either way...."the road not taken...". C'est La Vie I suppose!
Being stressed out and crazy busy is a weird thing. I have been worried about finishing everything this week and getting ready for next week and now that I'm done I'm in a weird little spot where I have little to do. It's nice but weird at the same time-I hope you can all empathize with these feelings because frankly its tough to explain.
I would whine and complain about all the stupid things my cooperating teacher said in my eval but I'm pretty much over it now and just trying to move on. I'm still a little nervous about my exit interview for the first experience, but it will be over before I know it and worrying isn't going to do me any good. I really need to find something productive to do over the weekend though-there's too much to do for me to sit around and do nothing.
I'm still struggling with making a decision about where I want to live...do I move to Texas to be with my honey and make more money? The starting teaching salary there is about 37,000 if I can find a job vs the 29,000 here (if I'm lucky). My teacher at the high school did say today that she would put a good word in for me at this high school if I was interested. If I am here it is definitely the school I would want to teach at, but I'm just not ready to make any decisions. I told her to put a good word in for me anyway because if I could at least get an interview it would be great experience! I don't know if I ever will be ready to make the decision though-I'm just going to have to decide and go from there. It's stupid I hate decisions like this in life. There are too many variables to really know what to expect either way...."the road not taken...". C'est La Vie I suppose!
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Begging for Acceptance
I just want to say that student teaching wears me out and over the course of the next two and a half months my slacking will probably continue. The next two weeks will be easier, but then it will be tough again for the next two months. Please accept that my blog will be somewhat lame.
First observation...there are times when teachers can be hypocrites...you can all be pissed off at me when you read this if you want, but you will only be mad if you find that it is true in respect to your own actions. I went to a teacher work day where we had guest speakers for Gender Bias and ELL students. Collectively this group of teachers did a few extremely rude things that really bothered me.
1. When the last two tables were asked to move to the front of the meeting room by the Vice Principal then the speaker they sat and looked at one another as if these people must be crazy and I'm not freakin' moving. I was embarrassed for the school when the GUEST SPEAKER had to ask more than once for them to move to the front while they sat with a deer in the headlights look.
2. Lunchtime was to be at 11am. As soon as 11am came to be the teachers found it time to begin chatting. How many times a day does a teacher say..."Just because the bell rings does not mean you have been dismissed from class, I dismiss you." Hmmmm I guess the guest speaker had the right to dismiss us to lunch.
3. Oh and my favorite example was the guy next to me who was pushing buttons on his phone and he didn't even have the decency to place the phone in silent mode. You are thinking well he didn't do this when the guy was talking, I'm sure of that...nope right in the middle of his presentation. It was pretty amazing.
Spent the weekend in Texas with J last weekend. I had a good time, but it was too short and a little bit cold to do much outside.
All is well here only 1.5 weeks left at the Junior High! Can I have an AMEN???? I am ready to move on and past my control freak cooperating teacher that can't seem to leave the classroom after six weeks.
First observation...there are times when teachers can be hypocrites...you can all be pissed off at me when you read this if you want, but you will only be mad if you find that it is true in respect to your own actions. I went to a teacher work day where we had guest speakers for Gender Bias and ELL students. Collectively this group of teachers did a few extremely rude things that really bothered me.
1. When the last two tables were asked to move to the front of the meeting room by the Vice Principal then the speaker they sat and looked at one another as if these people must be crazy and I'm not freakin' moving. I was embarrassed for the school when the GUEST SPEAKER had to ask more than once for them to move to the front while they sat with a deer in the headlights look.
2. Lunchtime was to be at 11am. As soon as 11am came to be the teachers found it time to begin chatting. How many times a day does a teacher say..."Just because the bell rings does not mean you have been dismissed from class, I dismiss you." Hmmmm I guess the guest speaker had the right to dismiss us to lunch.
3. Oh and my favorite example was the guy next to me who was pushing buttons on his phone and he didn't even have the decency to place the phone in silent mode. You are thinking well he didn't do this when the guy was talking, I'm sure of that...nope right in the middle of his presentation. It was pretty amazing.
Spent the weekend in Texas with J last weekend. I had a good time, but it was too short and a little bit cold to do much outside.
All is well here only 1.5 weeks left at the Junior High! Can I have an AMEN???? I am ready to move on and past my control freak cooperating teacher that can't seem to leave the classroom after six weeks.
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